hope your teeth grow longer...

kamis lalu iwan our idiot supir accident, bumper mobil kijang F tewas dengan sukses ahahaha accidentnya pas lagi nganter kunci kerumah aso hihihi
then after that idiot iwan telp C suruh C ngomong ma F soal mobilnya ditabrak motor..no way!! ngomong de lo sendiri..not my problemo mister idiot iwan..

setelah itu CH gatel tangannya, msg adenya yg disg kasi tao ttg accident ini then adenya cerita ke M yg pas lagi disana..and....guess wat?! M lsg blg kesemua (dd,kk n aso) itu pasti gara2 C keluar! sapa lagi yg pake mobil..selalu dia.
wat the fuck? selalu gw pake mobil..hey u moron M! fitnah lbh kejam dr pembunuhan!
trus kata aso dia blg lagi ke anak semata wayangnya (ade CH) katanya dia pagi ga pernah make mobil, selalu C yg make kemana2..kepasar bentar, beli buah bentar juga puas dia, ga betah dirumah, selalu mo keluar..wat the fuck!! pengen gw sumpelin mulutnya make selimut feli.. yg bener aja!! gw keluar itu pun buat beli keperluan S. C ga pernah keluar ke salon, kemall shopping ato ngopi ma temen. I can say gw 90% dirumah doank n i dedicate my life 100% buat jagain S...fitnah sekali dia..ngomong seakan2 C klr tiap ari..
kalo kepasar juga paling lama 45mnt coz C ga mo lama2 tinggalin S ma M..ntar anakku rusak kalo tinggalin kelamaan ma M!!
trus emang seminggu ada 2x gitu de kepasar..u know y? becoz C ga mo beli stock sayur S buat seminggu..C pengen S tetap makan sayur yg segar..pengen S tetap konsumsi all fresh veggies..plus masak soup buat S juga, kalo soupnya da habis C lsg kepasar beli ayam segar..i mean yg langsung milih ayam idup then dipotong..ampe rumah lsg dimasak hehe so im sure the chicken is really fresh..ehh gara2 begitu C diblg2...

so...what's next kesalahan C lagi huh M??? pengen ngomong C apa lagi?? sebeeell...i hope your gigi grow 1cm longer everytime u fitnah me..so by the time M 60 years old, shes gonna looks like walrus hahaha bcoz too much fitnah org..

kita bahagia = ada yg cemburu

Jumat sore C dapet telp dr CH, diajakin dinner dihotel Mulia! Cihuy cihuy!!! Da lama C ga makan enak hahaha trus tanpa M n F lagi, makin senang de nih hati..mulut gw mangap2 kaya ikan hahaha kesenangan ga bs ditutup haha. Bknnya ga mo ngajak M n F..kalo ngajak mrk, mrk too bossy! Apa2 mo rule terus jd males deh..trus harus jaga sikap kalo ada mrk..
Sabtu sore CH telp lg katanya dia ngajak W n my sis in law..doesn't matter coz C da lama ga ketemu aso, da seminggu dia ke sg ma M. Sorean CH msg katanya dia ga sempet plg jmpt C, jd C dijemput aso. Ya uda deh C siap2 trus make dress baru hihi C turun kebawah permisi ma mrk dgn gaya kampongan pura2 ga pernah mkn dimulia C blg dgn muka super hepi "C diajak CH makan loh dimulia!!" Haha dasar C perlu acting tingkat tinggi..beberapa tahun lagi bs dapet oscar for best actress! Huahahahahaa
Trus lg dibwh nunggu aso, fucker F mulai de acara tusuk-hati-C..dia blg "S keliatan senang mo diajak, biasa cmn dikurung C didlm kmr liat C seorg lama2 bs jd bego" cara F ngomong dgn senyum dikulum2 gitu. Sebel sekali! Pengen de C lempar mulut dia make my bag yg berat haha trus bis itu M nyelutuk "lg paen ya 2anak itu?" Trus C lsg blg ahh aso jg ikut makan soalnya dia yg jmpt C ya pasti dia bawa 2anaknya lah..I can see muka M n F berubah hehe stlh itu C denger bunyi klakson, C permisi ma mereka n buru2 pigi tanpa liat belakang..ternyata ohh ternyata F ngekor!! I didn't even notice haha ampe didepan aso nyapa "pa..klr dulu ya" C baru noleh kebelakang liat F pas dibelakang C doank huahahhaha trus dia check mobil ada sapa aja..bujubuneng tuh F! Haha
Ampe mulia both of us (C n Aso) makan secara brutal hahahah we enjoyed our night..then CH n the gang joined us..lovely dinner n lovely night..

Trus bsknya haahaha pas sarapan ma W n Aso, M complained katanya kmrn F pengen ketemu tamu china..bla3 hahahaha dia cemburu bow!! Aso lsg sms C cerita2 haha katanya dia cemburu huahahahaha lucu sekalii suami bawa istri pergi mkn dia cemburu..ntar de C nanyain dia mo sekamar aja skalian ama kita ga? Biar ga cemburu2 terus hahahahha apa salahnya coba kita havin dinner tanpa dia emang ga bole?? Andai malam itu anak2nya ga bawa istri pasti dia ga complaint hahaha aneh sekali itu M
Kata Aso dia ngambek ga beliin mrk mkn siang seperti biasa..trus mukanya sehitam arang pas sarapan dipasar hahaha lucu sekali dia..ampe rumah dia jg ga nyapa C. Dikamar trs, C malah lbh senang dia ga recokin C, ga bawa2 S pigi hahaha I got a peacefull sunday! Huahahhaa
Trus malamnya W n Aso ngajak M kemall dia jg ga mau..Aso cihuy ria spending time with her family peacefully katanya..jjs ampe jam 10 ampe smua toko pd tutup. Biasa ga pernah gitu, jam 9 aja da mo plg. Kata Aso suasana tanpa M asik sekali..hahaha baru tau dia..
In conclusion..yg mo dr kita ber2 sbg menantu..lbh sering ngambek donk M..hahaha biar kita bisa live free as a bird n be ourself!! Kalo bisa tiap weekend aja ngambeknya hahahahahha

Aso cerita trip dia ke sg ama M..katanya it was like in hell! Dia uda ga bantu jaga anak malah bossing around..aso kecapean setenga mati ampe pas dipswt plg jkt dia muntah gara2 pusing..kasian jg dia..katanya deket2 M itu hancurin hidup sndr hahahah katanya dia ngerti bgt perasaan C sermh ma M..n napa kadang weekend C ga mo klr ma M n F..kata aso pas pswt pulang M duduk sndr diblkg, perasaan aso plong hepi tanpa dia hahaahahahahah
In conclusion again..M failed as a mother in law..haha both of us ga nyaman disamping dia..n don't wanna get near her..

happy getaway~

Nih blm ceritain my Bandung getaway! It was FUN!! Fun,relax,happy n lovely.. Asik banget de pokoknya, even malam sebelumnya dag dig dug soalnya M maksa bgt mo ikut hahaha katanya dia mo brgkt minggu subuh jam 5 dr jkt. Gile niat bener ngekornya, yg lbh nekat M senin jam 6 pagi pesawat kesg ahahaha tp untung de dia ga tau napa ga jadi ikut.. CH,me n S pagi jam 9an brgkt dr jkt pas M cs lg dipasar MK hahaha sneak out de kita..

Otw keBandung, S anteng sekali..he's my very good boy..ampe Bandung ketemu my old buddy Rahman n had lunch with them.. Siangan ke hotel Hilton yg ajubilah bagus banget!!! Top deh!
Selama disana CH bantu jaga S pas C lg sibuk makeup buat wedding Michelle..CH baek bgt de, beneran bantu ngurusin S. Bener2 good daddy deh..Michelle got a nice wedding, happy for them soalnya dulu mrk ditentang ma Mich's dad bcoz of suaminya org batak..but finally they got married ;)

Besok paginya having really nice brekkie..S bener2 kompromi ma kita haha dia jg hvin brekkie direstaurant plus makan cheese segala..so cute de dia..bis itu CH bawa S keswimming pool maen air haha then kita ketemuan ma Dina n had really nice lunch! Stlh itu kita plg balek jkt..
Ahhhh...berkesan sekali deh trip to Bandungnya..I can be myself, can be with my friends, can do my makeup, dress nicely..ahhhh thank u CH!! Muach muach I love u..C bener2 happy banget de..atinya berbunga2 terus pas dsana hihihi

invincible

Yesterday nite after dinner..there were 4 of us, M,CH's younger bro,CH n me. M asked our maid to served only 3 golden kiwi, then CH asked me "C u don't want some?" Then I replied no.. If she's a good mother in law n she know how to treat me as a person, she would asked the maid to served 4 instead of 3..
After the maid came out with 3 plates of golden kiwi on her hands, maybe M feel ashamed n she ask out maid "potong kasi dia satu potong kasi dia satu" n then I refused politely, I said I just share with CH.. Its hurt me a lot..

As usual after that I looked at CH..I don't think he felt sorry for me..for what his mom did just now to me..its alrite I don't need him to pity me too..

About the steamer's story again..this morning she talked about it again! Yes, again! She told me to used the stove n I told her I scared the gas finish quickly if I always use her stove to cook..then surprised me she replied "iya ya tan wa e gas khuai liao, make listrik aja" then she borrow me electric stove to cook. She asked me to put that stove in my room, in my toilet. Yes in my toilet!! She wants me to cook for S in the toilet, I don't know whether I should laugh or cry, I just keep quiet n then she said ur room so full I don't think can fit it here..end up she put it in the kitchen n she ask me again "u really wanna use it or not?" I said honestly "I'm really scared I damage ur thing,Ma.." N then she stunned n said "barang pasti bisa rusak but u hv to use it gently"

These 2days I couldn't sleep well,got really bad headache.. Suddenly I have a feeling M n F gonna follow us to Bandung.. *sigh~ when can they leave us alone?

not a happy ending day..

I woke up this morning dgn semangat 45 although I just slept for 5hours coz I'd waited for CH came home nearly midnite..chit chat with him for a while..
The reason that I got xtra energy bcoz I planned to met my bestfriend with her family..yihaaa wat a beautiful day. Went to pasar pagi n bought some dresses with a bargain price!! Love it love it hahaha then meet up with CH there havin lunch with him..nyum nyumm..not the food was yummy, but my CH was companied me for lunch haha

My sis in law just came back from europe tour n bought me nice prada wallet (ahhh PRADA!! I'm dying for this!!) Clothes n chocolate..what a happy2 day!
Even when I tried to take a nap I couldn't sleep tite maybe bcoz in my mind I was thinking I'm gonna wear my dress for this weekend when I'm going out with CH..n when I'm gonna use my prada wallet..can't stop sniffing my new prada wallet haha still got new europe smell

Supposed to be happy day until M coming back...
I overheard M shout at the kitchen "aku paling pantang barangku rusak!! Ga mau ngaku!! Suruh dia ganti!!" Omigod.. I hide behind the wall..must be me! Must be me! should I run back to my room n hide or face it bravely? Then I choose to face it, walk into the kitchen with a faking-it-calm face n ask M what happened? Then she said her steamer that I always use to steam S's food is broken down..that old bitch (my maid) said to M all becoz of me..as I always use it..damnit! That bitch! She always use it as well, use it everyday to heat up food too..y me? M said next time dun cook too long with her steamer n don't cook with her microwave..I said I never use her microwave to cook, not even once. Then she said just use the stove..I said alrite n in my heart I was thinking if I'm using her stove next thing she's gonna blame me she always run out of gas so fast bcoz I always use it..Then that OB (old bitch) said the steamer water leaks then I check it doesn't leak! I saw OB face smile so happy bcoz M angry with me..she never likes me so do I.
I couldn't eat my dinner n just finished up my vege soup feel so full already, I went back to my room n feel so sad..end up I cried n hugged S tightly, suddenly my another nice maid came in n saw me cried, she knew what happened n she said to me "sabar ya ci.."
Talking about OB..lots of my issue with M was bcoz of OB. Once M asked why her sugar finish?? I know she used that every morning for coffee but she said "kan cici buat jelly" what the fuck!! That's why I still got 2 packages of jelly but dun dare to cook it anymore :( dun wanna get blame..I wonder should I buy my own sugar? M really believes what OB said about me..

CH coming home late again tonite..I offer to cook him fried rice since the food is sucks tday..then I told OB to took the dishes back n for my dear CH I will cook him warm fried rice, she said with not really nice tone "nasi goreng?!! Mang ga ada sayur?!!" Fuck U OB!!! U old wretch!!! Then I finally dun hv a mood for cooking, I text CH n said sorry I won't cook for him tnite..

Ok for tomorrow..I plan to go ITC to buy my own steamer.. *sigh~ happy day with a sad ending night......

107th months anniversary

Its my anniversary today..when I opened my eyes this morning I saw my CH looking at me..geez!! He was looking at me while I slept haha so sweet~
I smiled n hugged him once I opened my eyes this morning.. What a beautiful day when u woke up n the man u love just staring at u..
Happy anniversary my dear..

Anyway there's another good news! We shall going Bandung next weekend!! N guess wat! We staying in Hilton hotel..hip hip hurrayyyyyyyyy!! We going to to Michelle's wedding..
Ahhh I'm longing to the day like this..will be going for leisure just US..I mean me,CH n S..what a sweet little family.. I hope all my in laws not coming with us..please God..please make it happen n make me happy for a day..let me enjoy a day with my little family..

And about M..she was babysit my in laws children at their home..so I wonder if she eaten or not there..bought her nasi padang n then she was so happy n said thx..that's gud if she can appreciate me..

bukannya aku tak menyayanginya..

Bukannya aku tak pernah mencoba menyayangi M.. Setiap kali aku br mencoba menyayanginya dia selalu mencoba menusuk hatiku dgn perkataannya..
Setaon ini hidupku bener2 diuji de kesabarannya..CH bukannya tidak melindungiku tp bagaimanapun M yg jahat itu ibu kandungnya.. CH jg takut padanya..

Ini nih yg CH mau :
1. Bisa baca jalan pikiran M = kalo C bisa begitu bisa kaya tuh..ada bakat jd peramal..ntar bisa masuk tv ramalin org tgl ketik reg mama C kirim ke 888 jalan pikiran para mertua jahat akan kuramal haha
2. Harus terbiasa sama lidah tajam M&F = kalo da terbiasa ma lidah tajam mereka jadinya istrimu bukan manusia biasa..haha tak punya perasaannya lagi dong I mean diverbal abuse jg ga ngerasa apa2 lg..mau nih CH punya istri tak berperasaan lagi? Ntar blg I love u ma C, muka C kaya tembok rata soalnya ga ada perasaannya lagi loh haha
3. Harus bisa ngambil hati mereka = eh kalo hati mereka diambil..masi bisa idup? Enaknya hati diapain ya? Direndang? Digoreng make kecap??
4. Harus tahan difitnah = yeah babeh..as long as lo jgn termakan fitnahan M&F haha lama2 difitnah C mending jd patung aja de..patung ga bs sakit hati, ga bisa balasin kata2 tajam mrk, ga bisa sedih, ga bisa klrin air mata dan ga bisa senyum bahagia..mungkin CH pengen lyn jelma jadi patung aja..
5. Harus tahan aja kalo M ngajar S yg ga2 = ahh to b honest ini C ga bisa toleransi..hati ini ga rela anak diajar yg ga2..dr cara ngomong sampe berkelakuan..*sigh~ S makin hari makin gede n keen to learn everything..ini horror buat C if kelakuan n cara ngomong S bisa seperti M! S is so pure just like white blank paper..C pengen S grow in a warm family..yg bisa expresikan perasaannya secara bebas, dermawan plus baik hati n penyayang binatang.. Tapi under the same roof with M&F susah punya, masalahnya mrk terlalu mau ikut campur dlm mendidik anak..they don't know bagaimana peranan grandparents..and mendidik anak itu sepenuhnya hak parents only! C rasa S bakal numbuh dlm kebingungan..kebingungan mo denger kata C or M..that's the reason too I don't want M too close to S..

I know kadang CH kejepit diantara C n M..mo bela sapa gitu..haizz~ I won't do this to S kalo dia uda berkeluarga.. I promise myself to be a good mother n protect him until dia berkeluarga.. Kalo S suda berkeluarga berarti dia suda mature n bisa ngambil keputusan sndr without me.. S itu milik anak istrinya and akan ikut bahagia whenever,whatever,whoever yg bisa buat my S bahagia.. That's my goal to be a good mommie for S.. Ga seperti M yg dr urusan kecil ampe gede mo ikut campur..mslh ini kadang membuat my family ga akur..dikit2 hrs mikir konsekuensi apa lg ama M..when this gonna end??
C uda ga betah dirumah..rumah yg ga nyaman ini dan dikekang..yesterday CH told me dia ga merasa nyaman dikamar..C sedih mendengarnya..mungkin begini yah..because I can't rule the kitchen or house (smua M's rules) jadi C jd ga nyaman sekali, ngerasa bukan housewife ga nyaman masak, ga nyaman ini itu even my friend maen kerumah jg ga nyaman.. tidur pun ga nyaman gara2 dengkuran CH yg seperti dino mabok! Akhir2 ini jg susah tidurnya..I feel so tired with my life..so so tired..

Dulu sblm plg indo pas C lg kerja..my boss Lindy said to me "u will be happy wherever u are.." Waktu itu C percaya kata2 Lindy karena merasa betul..tapi kenyataannya tidak..I'm not happy at all living with M&F..ga nyaman..dikamar terus ga bebas..C dikamar terus gara2 merasa hanya dikamar C merasa safe.. Susah ahh hopefully dikasi cpt2 pindah demi kebaikan S yg makin hari makin lucu dan suka belajar..

apakah arti selembar Rp,£,¥,€,$??

Dulu zaman SD..who cares bout money?! Dikasi pilihan $100 ato Rp100, milihnya Rp100 haha..yeah be my guest to LOL! Just bcoz I knew Rp100 gw dapet nukar sugus 4biji diwarung sblh..kalo $100 ga bs buat apa2..

Then zaman Smp..my mum always gave me money every month..tp jg ga kepake banyak..paleng habisin beli card sailormoon..

Zaman Sma.nah ini da ngerti ma namanya uang..sebagian besar beli makanan haha no wonder I'm so chubby..ko suamiku dulu bs naksir ya?? Sala make kacamata kali dianya..then habisin buat foto disticker box juga..uang sama skali tak berarti banyak waktu itu..

Aussie time!! I never feel poor there..saat2 yg paling membahagiakan adalah waktu skolah diSydney..land of freedom!! I spent most of my quality time with my hubbie there..nice people,good food,friendly environment.. Ahhh how I miss Sydney badly now hiks* jd sedih bgt skg..
I work as a sales assistant there..nice work place..earn not much but more than enough for me.. I can get whatever I want.. I still remember I saved up to bought CH his dream laptop..I still can remember his expression with his new laptop :) it worthed every penny to see his happy chappy face..
Can afford nice bally shoes for him as xmas pressie..Hermes belt for anniversary..
He also gave me heaps of happiness there..roses for bday, chocolate for anniversary..designer handbags, jewellery..

And finally we being forced to for good by M n F!! From that moment on..my life is upside down..haha I hv to stay with them under the same roof..for sure with all M's rules *sigh~
No more freedom, no more luxury stuff, no more good people,and sadly no more good food..
CH only earns not much money everymonth. He works with his dad and M thought bcoz we stay with them n already save a lot so no need to give CH big salary..since then I've changed totally, I never buy designer dress n wear whatever clothes I got..sometimes I am so sad when I looked at myself in the mirror..where's the happy face gone?? No more brightness in my eyes..why my lips seldom smile now? Why always tears of sadness coming out from my eyes..
I tried to think positive..there's a lot more poor people..and they can live happy and I have to be happy too..but I really don't know which way to go to reach a happiness..I'm so lost now..
Sometimes when I called my friends and they told me they just bought this n that..I used to know all the name of designer handbags..no I don't know one of them haha to be honest sometimes I envy them..sometimes I will think of buying new luxury thing to soothe myself n to make myself happy. But I realised I don't have enough money..I don't earn e penny here and everytime I heard CH said he got no money, that's really broke my heart..
I look at money in different way now,not like before..I always worry bout CH..he works really hard lately..
Yesterday I asked him did he wanna buy new designer shoes since his bro in Italy now so we can get it cheaper? And he replied me i dun dare to think of it coz I dun hv enough money for that..ahhh that's the saddest thing..tears nearly came out from my eyes..actually I wanted to bought him for our coming soon anniversary but when he replied me like that I think it would be wiser to keep the money incase he need it and I can let him use my money..

But sometimes when I was angry my heart always shout "does he appreciate u?! Does he ever think of u?? Does he love u enough?!" Haiizzz~ I'm really lost..I think this few years will be my darkest life..

smile..

Smile though your heart is aching
Smile even though its breaking..
When there's a cloud in the sky u'll get by

If u smile through your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow,
You'll see the sun come shinning through for you..

Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although the tears maybe ever so near..

That's the time u must keep on trying
Smile, what the use of crying..
You'll find that life is still worthwhile if you just smile.. :)

10 shitty days

Ok..hubby back tmrw!! Yiiiihhhaaaaaaaaa!!! No more loneliness!! Got someone to protect me from those evils!! Haha

If u wondering wats my life was in the past 10days aka days without my chubby hubby
1. M banged in my room everynite n took S away. I won't let her do that after my CH is back
2. M n F (farter in law as he always fart!) always stabbed my heart when we start a conversation n I wonder maybe their tongue made from a knife that's y everytime they talk it hurts me
3. M breastfed my son S!! Dunno wats in her fucking mind!! Or maybe she's really not educated
4. M taught S to shout n blow saliva!
5. F told me off I dunno how to look after S! Yes he said that bcoz S doesn't wanna sit on the floor.
6. F said my son S stupid n got no feeling!
7. F said S like a boy just came out from cage if everytime we went out! Bcoz S loves to look around..OMG wat a mean idiot grandpa! I would love to go out but not with them! Sick of them!!
8. M loves to open my door wide so everynite I hv to catch mozzie!
9. S felt off the bed n his nose bleed..I was so scared without CH bside me..I was about to call CH n MnF didn't allow me to call my own husband n don't want my husband to know what happen to his son..the reason is the said business is more important than family! What a shit people they are!!

So...tmrw hope my life will b better after CH is back..n I won't let them mean to me anymore!! N this weekend I will plan a day out WITHOUT Monster n Farter!!

BEWARE!! Extremely gross!

I really hv no idea what was in her mind!! My mother in law breastfeed my son S!!
How dare she did that!! I mean that's so gross and so wrong!! Omg!!! I dunno wats in her fucking mind!

As usual! M bang into my room n took S away! I was so lonely then I was about went in their room and took S back, then I heard M shout..for ur info she loves to shout n talk loud..
I don't like when she teach my son to shout! Ok back to the story haha then right after I knew he taught S to shout, I went in there n rescue S out from their room! N then she proudly told me what she did!!
*sigh~ that was so wrong and gross to breastfeed ur own grandson!
For me that's not a joke n its not funny at all!! I bet she saw my face turn from pale to green to black!
Haha I was so shocked!! Couldn't believed what she just did! Just took my son for 30mins n did something out of the line!!! Omigod!! Breastfeed is a bond for mother n child..not for idiot grandma!!

Now..how can I believe her to babysit S?? Dunno wat she's gonna do to S next? Or wat she's gonna teach S?
I promise myself I won't get M too close to S now..for S own sake.

Happy Chappy!

Mmm..my chubby hubby just told me he bought me lots of shirts..
Makes my happy mode on haha coz he never did that before..I mean he always buy me things when I asked
But this time different..I didn't tell him to get me shirts n he bought it for me..surprised me haha

My chubby hubby always loves to gimme hotel stuff..shower cap, toileteries. Haha I got 3 bags full of it
And I remind him not to bring me anymore hotel's junks! N surprised me again he said he got many many many many for me already..
Gosh!! I said I got a 3bags full of it now! I dun need it anymore..and he replied that's becoz I care and think of u while I travel.
SURPRISED ME AGAIN!!! What happen with him?!! How come suddenly bcome so sweet with me?!
I wonder if we are apart will he be more caring? Unfortunately the answer is yes.
Mmm...can u be this caring to me while u r beside me? Can u always be that sweet when u are beside me?
I hope the answer is yes too...haha o yea! He will turn to very sweet if I was angry with him! Haha

Anyway..thanks chubby hubby..Muach I appreciate that..n feel rewarded.

Begini begitu

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Karna rambutmu semakin jarang
Gara2 terlalu sering menyinggung orang..

Jadilah lelaki sejati..
Janganlah selalu mendengar fitnahan istri..
Lihatlah kenyataan..
Begini begitu aku juga punya perasaan!!

Jadilah lelaki sejati..
Janganlah selalu memaki orang binatang
Lihatlah dirimu sendiri..
Jangan2 engkau yang seperti binatang!!

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dedicated to my angel, S Lee.

kasihmu..

Andaikan waktu dapat berputar kembali..
Akankah aku tidak akan salah melangkah, sayangku?
Andaikan aku mempersiapkan diri untuk menderita..
Akankah aku kuat menjalani kehidupan seperti ini?

Bimbing aku menjalani kehidupan ini dengan kasihmu..
Aku akan berusaha kuat dengan cintamu..
Lumurilah aku dengan perhatianmu..
Aku akan menelan serpihan kaca demimu..

Andaikan bukan kamu pilihan hidupku..
Apakah aku akan bahagia?
Andaikan kulupakan 9tahun bersamamu..
Apakah akan semudah itu?

Aku mohon padamu Tuhan,
kuatkanlah aku..
Aku mohon padamu Tuhan,
jangan padamkan cintaku..

Where's my privacy? where's my life?

sigh~ its really hard to be happy when u are living in a same roof with in laws...and ur husband only 4hours beside u when u are awake...its just like a hellhole sometimes..
lets call her M for my mother in law can stand for monster in law as well...hahahaha shes one in a million! i tell ya she can just bang in to ur room anytime without knocked the door first..doesnt care if im still sleeping..and after that she will just take my cute son away..

like just happened in 2minutes ago...my son is still sleeping n she just bang in the room n of coz my son awake n cried..n she smells like a rose pick up my son n went away with him...doesnt care bout me at all..n i tell u something..she really love to talk really loud when she knew my son is still sleeping..so he can wake up soon..M SO MEAN!!

im so lonely...my husband went to china for 10days n leave me alone with 2 angels with monster's heart..n tmwr i heard my bro in law coming back with his galfriend..yes!! my life is complete with all the devils around!! i have to survive for 6more days until my husband is back..

Goodbye MJ...

Its MJ funeral today..it was a beautiful funeral and i hope MJ was smiling from the heaven when he saw such a beautiful funeral and lots of people love him..anyway..MJ n I share the same fave song :) its "Smile"..i always sing this song when i was feeling blue n down for many reasons.. Rest in peace MJ..

and.......guess what..i think my in laws making a tribute concert for MJ..they've been karaoke-ing for 4 hours singing Teresa Teng's songs NON STOP!! hahahaha and sometimes out of tune..haha u can see a smoke coming out from my head now..